This is my story navigating being a believer in God and Christ and having same gender attraction.

 The next 5 months were full of good experiences yet full of hardships. I was talking to my Stake President and he mentioned I should become a temple worker at the Logan Utah Temple. I was speechless, because it was the norm that the temple workers would be elderly people who are retired. Who am I as a 23 year old to be a temple worker? I prayed about it and I said yes. It was the best time. I learned of who I really am and what I am capable of.  I also got to assist the Sister Missionaries at USU. Queue another tender mercy. I knocked on their apartment door and opened the door. I saw Sister McMillan who I knew from my days at MTC. What a blessing. By getting to know these missionaries and working with them, it has helped me have the desire to go back out to San Diego and do everything I can to get my health better. Every time I thought of giving up, I had the biggest pit feeling. I knew my missionary work wasn't over. Being able to spend time with one of my first companions ...

 Sept 19, 2012 age of 23 I entered the MTC (Missionary Training Center) in Provo, Utah. I didn't know what to expect. All I knew was this is where I was supposed to be. New people, new place was very frightening. I had very little to no alone time. That was hard, because that is how I reset myself. I was set to be in there for 3 weeks. Learning the Gospel teachings and practice teaching. VERY frightening.  That was the hardest 4 weeks of my life. 4 weeks you say? Yes, I was really sick. I was taken to the hospital because I was in pain. After being injected with morphine, I saw EMT running inside the ER. I recognized one person. My Uncle Brian. It was a tender mercy to see him. Having a family member come and comfort me during this hard time. He called my parents and I got to talk to them a little. Trying to talk while loopy on morphine is well..interesting. I felt all the prayers which I am grateful for.  Saying goodbye to the other missionaries in my district broke my h...

 It is not a secret that I was raised as a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. In this church, we have missionaries who dedicate their lives preaching the Gospel of Jesus Christ from roughly 18-24 months. I always had a desire to serve. At the time, women had to be 21 years old. When I turned 21, I knew I wasn't ready. So I continued to go to BYU-Idaho.  There was a  time that I wanted to change my major, yet I was in my Senior year. My request wasn't granted. My heart was shattered. I was mainly sad that I would leave my friends. So I thought I would go and pray to see where I could transfer to. No answers over and over again. So I changed my prayers and ask what God would have me do. The answer came so clear. "It is your time to serve a mission." WHAT??? What will my parents think? They encouraged me to finish school first because that was most convenient.  I went to talk to my Bishop and he was very supportive. I got the bravery to tell my p...

  For those who have known me for awhile and my story, I mentioned that I would eventually share my story more in detail rather in scattered posts on my other social media posts. As you may have seen in my headliner, this is a blog following my story of being a believer in God, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit and also having same gender attraction and what I have learned and still learning to navigate those two things about me.  Here are some fun facts to get to know me: Hobbies: singing, playing the piano, tap dance, basketball, soccer and surfing The ocean is one of my favorite places. So peaceful I'm the middle child I love comedy improv My friends and family mean the world to me God means the world to me (I'll touch more on that as the story unfolds) I am happy to have you here.